Me at the end.

I don't know. to be honest i am disappointed in myself. i have skipped class and i have not turn in many assignments. i know i failed the class. but regardless i have to stay one more year. but in general i feel that i have grown alot in other areas of my life. however my social skills still need a bit of work. it is too late now. the girl that i have strong feelings for is leaving. my self-conciousness has pushed so many people away from me. i am truly alone. i was under the illusion that i had friends... but i don't and those who i considered friends are gone and the others are leaving. i guess i have had enough training being alone and being disappointed in my life. one day i may find where i belong, somewhere i can play my music without fear of death and ridicule... but that is a long way away. maybe when i die i can find peace in life.

together.... for waht?!?

who needs other people. who needs friends? who needs false kindship. there is no together. it is all a lie. we are here alone. no one will help you. the world is choked by avarice, greed being the controling one. you may go together with the fools who believe you and that trust you. even though they will stab you in the back

alone... thats sounds about right.

i have been alone for a long time. no one understands me and no one cares to try. everyone wants me to change to fit their comfort and when i dont do what they want they leave me. people say they care but thats not true at all. the world is a dark horrible place on the serface and it is even worse at the center. i perfer to be alone. i am me and you are you. stay away

save the earth?

we are so tiny and insignifigant. how do we even believe that our actions can save the world from it's face. all we will do is deny reality and delay the inevitible. the world will die, we will die, and lifr will end and there is nothing we can do about it.

invisible

yeah not so much. regardless of how you feel you are always being watched. to even think you are invisible is proof of your insecirity. whoever believes that they can hide themselves for reality should pull their head out his or her ass and wake up to real life.

a book to read

i wrote a book my self. it is pretty short and it leaves off on a huge cliffhanger. but i'm not writing anymore. writing is tedious. the book is called "Dragons" and it is basically about this boy who was found in a forest with no memroy of his past. he is trained to fight against demons that threaten the human race. cliched? not really. i'll let you read it if you like. it is in movie script format.

A movie review

i'm not sure if you want me to review the movie we watched in class or a movie i have seen myself.
to be honest the only movie i saw this year was one called inception. well it was a half way decent movie the plot was so insanely simple. i dont even know why people think this movie is confusing, they must be idiots. it was rather long though. and it had a really stupid ending. 7/10

This is an amazing piece of art.it plays with our mind to make it seem like we are walking on air. it depicts an abyss. the art itself shows that the artist has alot of skill. i have respect for this piece. i wish i was able to stand on it though. i'm going to try and recreate this image here in chicago. if you see it then you know it was me if not then i probably got lazy and decided to nap instead.

things i need to get off my chest

i don't what people think about this but i have to say these things.
I do play dungeons and dragons, it is fun i dont care if it makes me look like a nerd I LIKE IT. i listend to techno and have personal rave parties in my room... yes i have bought strob lights and stuff just for that. i hate brick squad, young money, stacks on deck and all that other none talented crap that these stupid ignorant morons are getting paid for. what ever happened to i dont know TALENT?!? i work my ass off practicing all of my instruments organizing my band, getting gigs, recording my music and all of that stuff while these dumbshits are getting paid to scream the alphabet followed by random swear words and words that dont even exist into a mic. the only reason people even know that the goochi brand even exists is becuase of that idiot no brained basterd who decided to make that his name.
i dont like justin biebers music but i have respect for him. he has talent and people like him. i dont ever recall him singing about shooting someone over a pair gym shoes.

i could go on forever. i'm as bitter as an old man.
aside from that. go to newgrounds.com and look up a video called DOT DOT DOT. I know that was random.
if you are more interested in what i hate you tell me in the comments because i'm not going to talk to you in real life. i am anti social.

one last thing... play Dungeon and Dragons. THATS AN ORDER

Birthday week!

Happy birthday dude. how doees it feel to be 26? I'm sure you had an awsome time. partying your worries away by playing with your kids. yeah i'm not having kids (well not anytime soon i wont). but seriously thanks for not penalizing me for being late. i owe you. (god knows i didn't want to hear another Stojak speech). my gift to you is a compliment (thats alot coming from me). you are insert compliment here thats all i got

X is known

Okay. so i'm going to asumme that we have to talk about how Malcolm is known. well first off i'm going to say what many things he is known for. He was indeed a very succesful civil rights leader. i know well i believe his ideals were not centered around violence as many people think. he believed in defending himself against violence. he stated if you are hit you hit back. this very opossite of Dr. Kings' belief of non violence under any curcumstance. alot of people took X's talk of self defence to the extreme. and many blacks grew violent. black panthers is one of the most famous violent black groups. unfortunatly not many people knew what X's real ideals were.

is the king still the king

Well first of all MLK was never a king. he was one of many faces of the civil rights movement. yes i said it one of the MANY faces. the only reason he is considered the leader of the civil rights movement is because of his charisma, intllegence, and messege. unlike some other leaders he didn't want to overthrow the "white government" he just want to live in peace with them, become friends with them and grow with them. while others definatly looked to them as the enemy he didn't and that goes a long way.

im a shoe... well not really

I am a shoe, but not the same shoe you are thinking of. I am a shoe that everyone has, a shoe that need not be paid for. I am a shoe that at first prevides no protection but offers complete comfort. I am the natural shoe. I am a foot. Yeah okay made you anticipate something more amazing right? well the foot is amazing. It is free and none restricted. It can breath easy. And if trained properly it can become a very reliable source of protection. Like the foot I may not look all that great and also like the foot I get little respect but I also make life a little easier, not for you but for whom I am connected to. I allow free movement and little restrictions and although I may be hidden I am amazing.