Me at the end.

I don't know. to be honest i am disappointed in myself. i have skipped class and i have not turn in many assignments. i know i failed the class. but regardless i have to stay one more year. but in general i feel that i have grown alot in other areas of my life. however my social skills still need a bit of work. it is too late now. the girl that i have strong feelings for is leaving. my self-conciousness has pushed so many people away from me. i am truly alone. i was under the illusion that i had friends... but i don't and those who i considered friends are gone and the others are leaving. i guess i have had enough training being alone and being disappointed in my life. one day i may find where i belong, somewhere i can play my music without fear of death and ridicule... but that is a long way away. maybe when i die i can find peace in life.